If you Dishonor Yourself, Life will Reject You

If you read this statement 'If you dishonor yourself, life will reject you', you may possibly react with fear and think 'oh no, I mustn't dishonor myself, cause I don't want to be rejected by life!'. That is how I reacted when I heard these words being spoken to me a long time ago.

I looked inside of myself and I could see that I have never lived my life in honor of myself, perhaps with exception of when I was really little and still full of expression and innocence. Living in honor of yourself means to simply respect who you are, to at the very least accept who you are and that you exist here, to accept that you have a place in this world and that you have the 'right' to express yourself and in a way 'claim' that place that is yours in this world.

I have never lived that way, in fact very much the opposite. I more lived words like self-rejection, self-harm, self-abuse, self-judgment and even self-hate. There are people, such as myself, in this world who do in fact not accept who they are and who don't accept their own existence. They have more of a tendency to bring themselves down, hurt themselves mentally, emotionally and physically and suppress themselves rather than honoring who they are, taking care of themselves and respecting their own expression.

When I initially heard those words, for me it was another reason to hold myself captive in internal experiences of guilt, shame, fear, inferiority, regret, self-judgment and self-blame, because I believed that the 'Life' which is referred to in the statement is something that is here, something that exists separate from me, like when I look around and I see nature and the animals. I would see a purity and self-respect in other people and in nature and animals that I did not recognize in myself, so therefore I believed that 'Life' exists within them but not within me. And so it is the life that exists all around me that must accept me and that will reject me if I continue dishonoring myself.

However what I have come to realize is that this belief that Life exists around me in other beings and that it is something separate from myself which must somehow make the decision that I am 'good enough' to pass the bar and to not be 'rejected', was in itself something that I had fabricated as an outflow of my tendency to diminish myself. So in a way I was just looking for another way to experience self-rejection, in the form of those experiences of fear, guilt, shame, self-blame, self-judgment, etcetera.

In actuality 'life rejecting you' is a consequential outflow of you constantly and continuously within your own mind and self making the statement and decision that you are 'not good enough' and that you 'don't deserve to be here'. In your own mind, you have already made the decision that you actually don't really want to be here, which is expressed within such thoughts of self-judgment, self-blame and self-diminishment and within emotional experiences such as inferiority, self-hate, guilt, self-doubt and shame. So, if you aren't going to express yourself and be 'alive' in the more metaphysical sense of the word, then your body as that which is a direct mirror and em-body-ment of who you are inside will help, assist and support you within that decision.

With a state of mind being of self-rejection, you are making your body die sooner than it needs to because the body will just be executing the orders and instructions that are existent in the being that is residing in the body. And whenever you choose to suppress yourself rather than express yourself, whenever you judge yourself and diminish yourself and every time you are feeling unworthy, not good enough or 'less then', your 'instruction' to the body as your 'vessel of life' is that you don't really want to be here and you do not want to live your life's potential.

Your life's potential would be to accept yourself wholy, to express yourself unconditionally and to care for yourself absolutely. So whenever you choose to instead of accept, support and express yourself, rather judge, reject and suppress yourself under self-diminishing thoughts and emotional experiences, you are essentially stating that you are not interested in your life's potential, and so you are therein instructing your body to in turn not support you.

In other words, the statement 'life will reject you', is not a form of punishment or a judgment such as 'God will smite you', but it's actually just the reality of what happens when you exist within thought and behavioral patterns of self-rejection. You reject yourself as life, thus life rejects you - because it is what you create.


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